i feel strange?

some times i feel like i have to confirm my existance , i mean that i should be searching deep down inside my soul for the things that i think i sould be, i should let the writer come out of my heart and lay myself down to the world ,things small and crazy but i should be doing, seriously i need to do something ,i hate to let my self flow in the circle of work which by the way is not going so well, i feel strange, i feel like every thing around me is strange, i am so afraid of that endless all alike days where you only wake up to go work until it is time to sleep,it is not an easy thing to feel yourself lost alone and with noone with a true vision of yourself, why am i so kidding my self ,i want to fall in love to find a new a job or lets say fall in love i wanna feel that heat that people talk about the flavoure of finding something or making a new discovery , do something thatwouldleft my soul up, i really feel strange, and by the way i may do anyhthing to get myself outof that feeling